Brethren, a testimony from my wife Kim who has endured many hardships in her life, yet remains faithful in the Lord. She has a quick tongue, yet a soft heart for people. A heart for the Lord Jesus. We need more like her.
Forgiveness and Prayer
25 “And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your Father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses. 26 But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses.” (Mark 11:25-26)
28 “Assuredly, I say to you, all sins will be forgiven the sons of men, and whatever blasphemies they may utter; 29 but he who blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness, but is subject to eternal condemnation”— 30 because they said, “He has an unclean spirit.” (Mark 3:28-30)
Being with the Lord all my life has shown me that man has no boundaries. Even with God sometimes they can not accept the truth. When I was younger I was not with a graceful mother. Her idea of love was to break me down or beat me down verbally and physically. I still loved her and prayed to God that she would find a different way to show her hate for what I loved. In due time as grandchildren came along she became more peaceful, so I thought. It had been two and a half years since I had spoken or seen my family. I have never held a grudge and have always prayed for their well being. God has brought me to the point where no matter what they say I still love them. I saw them for the first time last year at a funeral. My father which was a great Christian at one time had a stroke and recovered during the time I had not seen them. We were really close and even though I claimed to putting God first in my life I looked up to my dad more than I did the Lord. It wasn’t till I saw him and what he said to me, that I realized, that even though I loved my father, I really should have been looking up to God. Because He loves me more then my worldly father does and always will. My father approached me and said to me after two and a half years “what’s up?”. I knew at that point that he was not going to forgive me for going forward with God and not with my family. I will always love them and care for them with great love, But as a christian to live a life in the Lord is a great honor. Forgiveness is not hard if the love of the Lord is flowing with us. If we believe that one person can forgive or be forgiven then nothing is lost in Gods eyes. But if we preach forgiveness but cannot forgive how are we not lying to ourselves and to God. The Lord wants truth to be taught not perverted for our own gain. We can not pick and chose what sounds good to the people like the Catholic church does to make our self feel better. Or to take a shout at someone because our hearts are hardened. We as Christians need to realize when someone is being honest about our faith and the lord is working in the spirit of those people,then shouldn’t we be asking God what to do, not how can I hurt others? The more we have fire in our bellies the worse our pain will become. I have met a lot of great brothers and sister throughout my journey as a christian and would not change any of it. Some of them I have learned a lot from and some I pray they put aside their pride. Each and everyone of them I will always still love and will pray that they can show me grace in return. But it can only come when we are ready to step aside and let God soften our hearts. I will always welcome any of my brothers and sister in my home, because no matter how disrespectful anyone of them want to be, I have to be better for the Lord and let him Guide me to salvation. Sometimes we forget that a lot of us need to find out what God wants us to do, not what our anger makes us do. If we do not see our wrongs then we are just like Adam who blamed God, because he was given Eve and sinned. This is where we need to ask the Lord, is this right? Should we do this? If Adam would have stopped to ask God about the tree do you think we would even be in a sinful world right now. God still loved Adam and Eve so why is it hard for brothers and sisters to forgive others who have shown love towards them. Even when the two people that God created did the worst against the Lord? (Genesis 3)
When we approach the end of the days should we not ask ourselves why? Like God has told me this week. We cannot hide what God can see inside. If we are deceitful He can see it, if we are liars He can see it, if we are haters or jealous He can see it. We are not doing any justice for ourselves if we live with the hate that has taken our hearts.
Men will not write or speak from their heart of the Lord, because of the fire that is burning in their bellies.
43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, 45 that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. 46 For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? 47 And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so? 48 Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect. (Mat. 5:43-48)
Love and grace be with those that lash out at others because of their own harden hearts for Jesus says:
8 Blessed are the pure in heart, For they shall see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers, For they shall be called sons of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, For theirs is the kingdom of heaven. (Mat. 5:8-10)
8 Again, a new commandment I write to you, which thing is true in Him and in you, because the darkness is passing away, and the true light is already shining.9 He who says he is in the light, and hates his brother, is in darkness until now. 10 He who loves his brother abides in the light, and there is no cause for stumbling in him.(1John 2:8-10)
This is the testimony of my wife Kim. The Scripture is what the Lord told her to add as a support to this testimony. To be fair I have been a part of the separation from her family. For when they would not stand for Truth and her father would not stand in Christ Jesus against the injustice coming against my wife then we knew we could not continue in that situation. I have previously written of the situation that caused separation Here. Our hearts and prayers are continually for their salvation in Christ Jesus. Just as it is for others who have called on the name of Christ but refused to stand in His truth. I will add no more to this testimony and let it stand as is. I pray it to be an encouragement and call to examine your walk before the Lord just as we do. Blessings in Christ Jesus.
Last Days of the Age 
Matthew 5:43-48 might be interesting to discuss in greater length some time …
Peace and grace,
Mark